Author’s Note : I wrote this before I felt ready, before clarity arrived, and before I knew who I’d be on the other side of this moment. I’m sharing it not because I have answers, but because honesty felt safer than silence. If you recognize yourself somewhere in this, you are not alone. Content warning : cancer , medical trauma , death , emotional distress , and dark humor . By: Ayanna M. McNeill 1-29-2026 So yesterday was ah day… and by “ah day” I mean in the sense th